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Một bài hát của xưa cũ..

Tôi nghe lại Boy In Luv
Hình ảnh em cùng thời cấp ba mấp mé hiện về
Mùi men rum;
Mùi quạt mới, sơn mới của những phòng học mới;
Mùi sách bài tập anh đội tuyển;..
Mùi bụi phấn, mùi bụi cát công trường..
Tưởng như mới ngày hôm qua tôi còn trong cơn hơi say nửa tỉnh, nghe đi nghe lại Boy In Luv của Bangtan như một con nghiện
Thèm được thương;
Thèm được nhảy cùng những con người cùng đam mê, sở thích;..
Tôi nhớ về tất cả
Cả sự thờ ơ ỡm ờ của em..

Có lẽ tôi đã quá vội,

Lao vào em như một con muỗi đói
Chỉ để được gì?
Hút được tí máu;
rồi chết.

Tôi đã có những ngày tháng đó
Nhờ em, đô tôi bây giờ nặng cỡ thầy tôi, có khi hơn, tôi chưa thử hết giới hạn của mình mà..

Mùi của căn phòng ẩm mốc cũ cũ cạnh lớp thầy Tâm..
Hơi gió từ ô cửa sổ đó
Sự cô quạnh của cô nữ sinh ngày nào..

Tôi không biết điều gì khiến tôi mê em nhiều như vậy
Nhưng để bảo toàn vị trí “Nàng thơ tuyệt nhất” của em
Tôi không màng tìm hiểu
Cứ cho là một sức hút tự nhiên đi..

Dù sao thì đó cũng là chuyện của quá khứ rồi
Tôi đã yêu em cuồng si
Có lẽ giờ vẫn vậy
Vì lần nào nhìn thấy em tim tôi đều lỡ 1 nhịp, thật.
Nhưng.. tôi đã không còn là cô nữ sinh năm nào nữa rồi.
Tôi đã đi đến cái ngưỡng khác của yêu thương rồi..

Tôi yêu em;
nhưng chỉ để đó thôi.

Trưởng thành tốt nha em,
Có lẽ tôi sẽ không ở bên để xem em trưởng thành đâu
Vì tôi biết sẽ có 1 người đàn ông làm điều đó cho em tốt hơn tôi nhiều..

Tôi với em cũng giống nhau nhỉ.. :)
I love you, but not to love you
I let you know, but just to let you know
For i don’t love you like the way people may think of
I love you, my muse
For you’re great and awesome
And i love other people with the genuineness from the bottom of my heart.. That’s another different kind of love..
So yea, i hope you’ll have someone love you more than the way i did.

Live well child;
Farewell..

Acc Twitter bựa phường mới của em, ai muốn nghe 1 con Bỉnh Bào lảm nhảm về chính nó cùng mấy đứa khác thì bơi dô *quảng cáo* :))) 
Sự qởn đời được đưa lên tầm mới =)))))
..
Just my new Twitter account babbling about horo stuffs, if any of you are interested in my opi lmao :))

#twitter#shiet#new#account#horoscope#aquarius#random#capricorn#virgo#libra#sagittarius#cancer#scorpio#pisces#gemini#aries#leo#taurus#spread#the#word#lmao#love#you#guys#moahh

Acc Twitter bựa phường mới của em, ai muốn nghe 1 con Bỉnh Bào lảm nhảm về chính nó cùng mấy đứa khác thì bơi dô *quảng cáo* :)))
Sự qởn đời được đưa lên tầm mới =)))))
..
Just my new Twitter account babbling about horo stuffs, if any of you are interested in my opi lmao :))

#twitter#shiet#new#account#horoscope#aquarius#random#capricorn#virgo#libra#sagittarius#cancer#scorpio#pisces#gemini#aries#leo#taurus#spread#the#word#lmao#love#you#guys#moahh

It’s insane;
I care and all that just.. shit
to ones i care about.

Sometimes it’s so lonely
Like so so so so so freakin lonely
..
Idk why im putting this up
Maybe i’m kinda delusional right now..
So tired..

My dark days are coming to an end
I’m ready for Halloween
💀👌

Just after tomorrow
Oh yes..
🙌

It’s insane;
I care and all that just.. shit
to ones i care about.

Sometimes it’s so lonely
Like so so so so so freakin lonely
..
Idk why im putting this up
Maybe i’m kinda delusional right now..
So tired..

My dark days are coming to an end
I’m ready for Halloween
💀👌

Just after tomorrow
Oh yes..
🙌

Well this is my friend, i recently realized how much he look like our Suga 😆😆😆😆😆

Well this is my friend, i recently realized how much he look like our Suga 😆😆😆😆😆

Bangs ‘n Eyeliner 💜

If ya have a prob, deal with it, i don’t care what you said
╰╮( ╯◡╰ )╭╯

2 things tho
1st;
Suddenly remember of the time with my Virgo boy, such a lovely boy
The 1st ever true muse
Not the best
But still the 1st 😌
Kinda miss him,..
Is it weird of me to blurt it out like that?.. to him?
Nah.. I’m way over that, seriously
Too over that apparently though..
😔
I suck at relationships
Even the close relationships 😣
Those that worthwhile 😞
Omy.. What did i do..?!
Such a fool.. 😥
Now i really embrace the value of those who love me.. Like really.
I just wanna give each of the people who still stick around a hug, a kiss.. anything.. 😢
..
Spread the love Purp
Spread the love
💔
“Here have a piece, it’s not a perfect piece, not even whole, even broken..
I don’t have much but this is all i can give you,
and you,
and you,
..
and you.
I’m sorry i haven’t done it sooner..
😢
But better late than none rite?..”

2nd
It hit me this morning when my lecturer return my assignment
My work wasn’t bad
But it lack what the assignment requires..
I got outside of the box and hyper got the best of me
I got carried away.. 😢
The essence of it..
I forgot, I neglected it 😔
Ya have to do what you’ve been told
Even though it’s being inside the box 📦
I feel trapped man..
But this is the path i’ve chosen
I HAVE to do whatever to fit in, get used to it.. 🙍
The only place i can felt freedom, and being myself is in singing, composing, dancing.. Others art forms..
This?.. It is true what that guy said before i once read
“When your hobby became your job,
It wouldn’t be your hobby anymore;
And all you have left is a job.”
It’s sad man..
I see in my class, artists everywhere
With a burning passion of drawing
But they had no idea what they just put themselves into
I knew, i knew very well..
But i CHOSE it 🙍
There’s no going 🔙
..
No where to 🚷
So the only way is to go to the 🔝.

Imma fight this, survive..
‘Til i f*cking collaspe 💀
Man to man ☝
Not just because i can be this: 💃
And you see me as weak
Imma come back twice as 💪🔥💢
And imma make it 😎
Just wait and see 💀👌

So my friend just reignited my thing for Egyptian Hieroglyphs and i winded up revising that Alphabet 😅

Got myself a new phrase to tattoo on my heart ☺
And now:

Only 1 shot;
You can’t control life.

Opportunities are throwing themselves at me 😳
Like BIG time 😂
And Imma just read some fiction and head to bed,
Tomorrow i have to finish a NEW assignment my lecturer just gave to me today, deadline is this friday 😟
8 drawings in different concepts 😐
He’s a dead man to me now 😑
Luckily i’m 5 or 6 done sketches for ‘em 😒
But still, that’s a lot of work 😣
Maybe i’ll get to my freedumb tmr early..
I’ll try, definitely 💪😤

Imma go now,
Nite.

So my friend just reignited my thing for Egyptian Hieroglyphs and i winded up revising that Alphabet 😅

Got myself a new phrase to tattoo on my heart ☺
And now:

Only 1 shot;
You can’t control life.

Opportunities are throwing themselves at me 😳
Like BIG time 😂
And Imma just read some fiction and head to bed,
Tomorrow i have to finish a NEW assignment my lecturer just gave to me today, deadline is this friday 😟
8 drawings in different concepts 😐
He’s a dead man to me now 😑
Luckily i’m 5 or 6 done sketches for ‘em 😒
But still, that’s a lot of work 😣
Maybe i’ll get to my freedumb tmr early..
I’ll try, definitely 💪😤

Imma go now,
Nite.

Funny..
So turns out he doesn’t deserve to have a special place in my heart after all
I’m talking about the other guy, not my muse
I’m wayyy over that now
..
I realized
The only thing he loves is himself
A girl is just something for him to be at ease of not ending up being alone
Doesn’t even know what love is
Whereas me who had never been into any relationship, but been through so many heartaches, heartbreaks and here i am..
At the least i know better than him
..
I know what i did
I know it hurt him
And i care, as a dear friend
That’s why i’m trying, still, to make things right again..
But it seems like i’m the only one
..
And he doing this to me
It hurts me too
..
How come he doesn’t see that..?

I’m going through a hard phase of this year, at ease, but uneasy..
If he cared, he’d answer..

I only made him mad a bit
And he treats me like this..?
After all i did loved you once
Not that way that it is now, not anymore
But this is plain childishness..
Had he just liked me but it wouldn’t be enough to break out of the zone if things keep being like this..

Also.. I’m way over that too.
So yea,
I guess.. You love yourself.
Too bad for me that i thought you of something else more than that..

All that for nothing huh..

Funny..
So turns out he doesn’t deserve to have a special place in my heart after all
I’m talking about the other guy, not my muse
I’m wayyy over that now
..
I realized
The only thing he loves is himself
A girl is just something for him to be at ease of not ending up being alone
Doesn’t even know what love is
Whereas me who had never been into any relationship, but been through so many heartaches, heartbreaks and here i am..
At the least i know better than him
..
I know what i did
I know it hurt him
And i care, as a dear friend
That’s why i’m trying, still, to make things right again..
But it seems like i’m the only one
..
And he doing this to me
It hurts me too
..
How come he doesn’t see that..?

I’m going through a hard phase of this year, at ease, but uneasy..
If he cared, he’d answer..

I only made him mad a bit
And he treats me like this..?
After all i did loved you once
Not that way that it is now, not anymore
But this is plain childishness..
Had he just liked me but it wouldn’t be enough to break out of the zone if things keep being like this..

Also.. I’m way over that too.
So yea,
I guess.. You love yourself.
Too bad for me that i thought you of something else more than that..

All that for nothing huh..

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Mn ngủ ngon :3

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Quẩy đeee 😆😆😆😆 :))))

Sappy music at night pull my feels down, as a good down
They reminded me that i was once in love, and deeply that it
Probably still, but i’ve accepted that harsh fact that it wouldn’t work out
And it hurts so bad..
It tears me apart thinking about it
And only to think of the reason..
It hurts me again that the answer to that was my sexuality
That i wasn’t a dude..
People never pay attention to the girl who got shot out of the relationship and not being able to continue or even join the fight because sexually she’s not qualified..
That feeling, thus far in this year, is still the worst feeling ever..
I can’t do anything about it
I can just sit there watch them be happy, although it’s just a vast thing..
The shitty thing is that the other guy.. doesn’t know what he has his hands on until he had lost it..
I just want my little dude to be happy, though it’s not me but that’s at least what i want for him..
He gave his heart to the other guy, innocently, sweetly, naively..
I could foretell the end but i couldn’t do anything..
It’s like sitting there watching your love ones kill themselves and you’re tied down, just watching them dying out..

I’ve ask the lord repeatedly
“Why do I had to go through with these kind of mental shits?”

I don’t know..
I don’t

It haunts me, and it kills me just thinking about it..
Even now, it’s a kind of different love
This is something that happened
Which will last forever,
Cause it’s part of history now..

I loved you;
I loved you still.

I hope that you’ll find someone;
That loves you,
As much as the way i did..

Sappy music at night pull my feels down, as a good down
They reminded me that i was once in love, and deeply that it
Probably still, but i’ve accepted that harsh fact that it wouldn’t work out
And it hurts so bad..
It tears me apart thinking about it
And only to think of the reason..
It hurts me again that the answer to that was my sexuality
That i wasn’t a dude..
People never pay attention to the girl who got shot out of the relationship and not being able to continue or even join the fight because sexually she’s not qualified..
That feeling, thus far in this year, is still the worst feeling ever..
I can’t do anything about it
I can just sit there watch them be happy, although it’s just a vast thing..
The shitty thing is that the other guy.. doesn’t know what he has his hands on until he had lost it..
I just want my little dude to be happy, though it’s not me but that’s at least what i want for him..
He gave his heart to the other guy, innocently, sweetly, naively..
I could foretell the end but i couldn’t do anything..
It’s like sitting there watching your love ones kill themselves and you’re tied down, just watching them dying out..

I’ve ask the lord repeatedly
“Why do I had to go through with these kind of mental shits?”

I don’t know..
I don’t

It haunts me, and it kills me just thinking about it..
Even now, it’s a kind of different love
This is something that happened
Which will last forever,
Cause it’s part of history now..

I loved you;
I loved you still.

I hope that you’ll find someone;
That loves you,
As much as the way i did..